My world is spinning

had too much alcohol, world is spinning, can't sleep...

I am pathetic

I am alone - hence I am lonely

Yes I have friends who care for me but there is a loneliness that even the best of friends can't fill. and I have no best friends. granted I discarded the best friend of my own accord but I have never felt this lonely or maybe I've just never let it get to me this badly.

I had alcohol and I walked home in the middle of the night for roughly 40 mins.

I just want to feel something

I just want to be seen as something more than what I am by someone who sees some good in me

I don't know what I want

I just know I'm pathetic

Maybe I just need to say what I need to say or just be honest for once in my life rather than keep everything to myself and make sure everyone else gets what they want

I just want to be loved. I just want to be told you are something special to me. Pathetic

truly, pathetic..